What made you what you are today?

I failed to notice the dark clouds which were all storming towards me. While I was busy celebrating the light, suddenly the smoke was everywhere making it difficult for me to breathe.

No there weren’t any stars visible in the dark which those inspirational quotes claim about. An unwanted and unexpected moment not willing to pass at all. I was confused.

I asked myself that were my eyes even open because I couldn’t see anything. Though I could feel something surrounding me with all the bad vibes.

I could hear it cursing with a promise that it won’t leave me for a long time now. And will stay and make things difficult for me everyday for many more days ahead.

But right when I was about to give up I reflected upon myself & my journey so far. I realised that I have always been moulded by those who built me as well as the ones who have broken me. These days shall pass too. And it will again mould me into something new.

So what made you what you are today?

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An open letter to the man who screamed KARMA everyday after that day!

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Dear Stakeholder of Karma, 

Every night I tasted my own tears while thinking about all those unvisited snowfall that completed you without me.

I woke up to several nightmares where a family of so called open-minded demons kept teaching you how to curse instead of prioritising your love for me.

When it all ended you looked happy but when I moved for my happiness you offered me the unexpected vision of my character.

And you gave those demons the power to crash me and burn what you failed protect & preserve.

Where were you while the demons pushed me to sink in my own miseries?

You were standing right there pretending to be in love.

I failed to notice that you were willfully suffocating me & screaming karma from within.

You were a gateway for all the demons to enter my weaknesses.

To the one who is screaming karma everyday, kindly celebrate the death of my existence.

(based on a real life incident submitted to #tfu__ : submit your stories for copy-editing to talesforeveruntold@gmail.com)

The kingdom of isolation | Khati 

It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small. And the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all!

My trek toward Khati, which is considered one among the backward and lastly inhabited villages in the lap of Himalayas was not an ordinary trip.

After reading my previous articles you must have received an idea about the kind of work I’m into. At present I’m located in the remote location of Uttarakhand, India. Working under a Rural Development Program I’m also trying to explore the culture and beliefs of people. I had to visit Government Primary School of Khati for an intervention with the children there, merely a creative activity. To know more about the same or suggest ideas for making my interventions better please comment below with the contact details. 

This was an opportunity that I received because I and my two co-fellows were supposed to be interviewed for a documentary by our donor organization.

I will soon elaborate my experience here. Have a happy reading & writing. Take care! 🌻

Vipassana Retreat : Power of isolation. 

With my first Vipassana retreat I tasted silence and solitude. Several months before I moved from Mumbai to Uttarakhand to find some peace. To escape the regular life and contribute in the rural community. While I worked between the cold & misty mountains I decided to travel to Jaipur for a Vipassana course. Not only for meditation but in search of some answers to my misery. And look where I found the key, within myself. 
Dhamma Thali Vipassana Centre demands us to remain silent for 10 days, without talking to anybody one must meditate the whole day, eat plain food & isolate itself deeply. 

Being a proportionate explorer I could see myself getting down in life after seeing the mess in myself. 

It wasn’t that easy because just like some, I am a complicated person with tangled cycle of thoughts. I have always been writing stories and verses to entangle my own miseries. But here I learned to accept the same without giving any feeling or any label of craving or aversion. 

Yes! I felt like running away the very next day. The first few days was a jail experience. If I knew I could then I would have surely left the place. 

I had several people around me who followed the course rules of not even passing gestures to each other. Disconnecting myself from everyone and technology was not difficult but being unable to share the outbreak made me feel weak. Who knew it was making me strong. I kept smiling because I wanted the same to reflect between the people in the same journey. And started stitching stories inside my mind. 

Unfolding some tales turned unnecessary. The baggage of this untold experiences ain’t heavy either. 

Letting go of many unwholesome beliefs and habits that had set boundaries, one becomes aware of the body and the mind. Mostly the interaction between the two. Because we are usually busy distracting ourselves so we can’t see or readily face some difficult truths about life and death, joy and suffering, karma and chaos etc. 

This will change – This is what I learned, experienced & will follow that nothing is permanent. And also that I am not going to perform any good only for others to think I’m good. But for myself to feel good. 

The experience is different for everyone. Some take a dive into deep peace, some barely are able to get the hang of it. But this course isn’t demanding. It believes in giving to all those who can accept. I did and I’m happy. I suggest you all the same. 

The best stories will be curated when you will have no pen or paper on you.  
Have a happy reading & meditation. 🌻

Celebrating Motherhood & Compassion ❤

After being asked to share my views on this theme this was only an immediate thought I could conclude with. Let me share it here too. 🌻
I don’t know if one must relate motherhood to a mother itself. But if you can communicate to a child and make it feel that the world is still a beautiful place and growing up is going to be a beautiful journey. 

Motherhood hides yet shines within you. 


Yesterday we were celebrating this theme for our recreational evening. We all were dressed in traditional outfits and had proper vegetarian meal. Also did we revealed the Secret Santa mystery. Shared cute gifts and spoke all our views about Motherhood & Compassion. 

We taught ourselves that motherhood and compassion is not a gender specific feeling. It grows within anybody and for anyone. Largely among the unconditional lovers named as parents. 
Motherhood and compassion demands nothing in return and is believably a giver of all time. 🌻 

#tfu__ #fellowshipdiaries 

It was a shooting star! 🌠

Little Maroon Riding Hood 🌻

It just happened a night before while I left from the boys hostel to reach my hostel. 

This Mumbai-City-Partner of mine planned to drop me. On our way toward his bike I stopped to stare at the sky. I was dazzled with the constellation right when he was about to share the same feeling. 
So I explained him about my lucky stars, three that are vertically aligned and 4 that are misplaced into a triangle. 

Any wish that you make when these sets are visible together will come true and after telling this to him we paused to make a wish.
As soon as we opened our eyes and he spoke about a set of bear structured stars we saw something crazy. 

YES! A shooting star. ( I know this ain’t my first time but still a moment of Yay! )
It’s always fun with you buddy. ( This image is from our trip for baseline test in the government schools ) 

#tfu__ #talesforeveruntold #fellowshipdiaries #himalayas 

When I began to adopt some schools in a heavenly place. 

Imagine having a classroom located at the top of the hill for some time. Having a window that distracts you with those green but misty mountains. The soft and cold breeze that chills you with those ice-creamy skies. 

What if I say I’m working with such schools

The children of this community provide me an atmosphere which is family oriented. They make you feel like you are an angel and that’s the biggest encouragement to take in all the efforts to do something for them. 

It wasn’t that easy when I actually began this journey. Being a girl I had to be sure about my safety in these remote areas. But when you start taking small steps and start trusting families from these locations you get encouraged to explore more. And when you go through some homesickness, challenges and still find a sense of happiness you would want to explore more and this is what happened to me. 

As I and my team are under a District Transformation Program, we need to work with the Head masters of these government schools and build leadership within them. Our aim is students development. So that they achieve immense knowledge that they deserve. 

My trek toward these schools has been difficult. Every school is mostly situated on the top of the Kumaon Hills. Even though Pahadi people are used to it, when people like me come from Metro Cities like mine, happen to exhaust and tremble a lot. 

There have been days when I had no means of transport and I had to walk back for 16kms daily. Apart from this climbing my way to different schools was spraining. Eventually the best part was to never give up. I have felt the sense of inner achievement on every visit of mine to school. 

As I have performed various teaching patterns and introduced these children with the bigger world, I am planning to help them with career guidance and a healthy friendship. 

( My 2nd week experience page ) :

Today was one such day where I visited these students at Banshe P.S and I wish to be assigned for this school. All I wish to do is while the students are living between the skies, taking all the efforts to let them reach great heights as well. This fellowship is blessing our team with so many buddy-relations with these kids which we are never going to forget. 

Oh yeah this is just the beginning. 

( Below are the images to my 4 months of various School Activities ) 

#fellowship #schoolvisit #individualexperience #goodcause #ngo #foundation #ruralschool #transforming #uttarakhand #kapkot #bageshwar #teaching #blessed