What made you what you are today?

I failed to notice the dark clouds which were all storming towards me. While I was busy celebrating the light, suddenly the smoke was everywhere making it difficult for me to breathe.

No there weren’t any stars visible in the dark which those inspirational quotes claim about. An unwanted and unexpected moment not willing to pass at all. I was confused.

I asked myself that were my eyes even open because I couldn’t see anything. Though I could feel something surrounding me with all the bad vibes.

I could hear it cursing with a promise that it won’t leave me for a long time now. And will stay and make things difficult for me everyday for many more days ahead.

But right when I was about to give up I reflected upon myself & my journey so far. I realised that I have always been moulded by those who built me as well as the ones who have broken me. These days shall pass too. And it will again mould me into something new.

So what made you what you are today?

Vipassana Retreat : Power of isolation.

With my first Vipassana retreat I tasted silence and solitude. Several months before I moved from Mumbai to Uttarakhand to find some peace. To escape the regular life and contribute in the rural community. While I worked between the cold & misty mountains I decided to travel to Jaipur for a Vipassana course. Not only for meditation but in search of some answers to my misery. And look where I found the key, within myself. 
Dhamma Thali Vipassana Centre demands us to remain silent for 10 days, without talking to anybody one must meditate the whole day, eat plain food & isolate itself deeply. 

Being a proportionate explorer I could see myself getting down in life after seeing the mess in myself. 

It wasn’t that easy because just like some, I am a complicated person with tangled cycle of thoughts. I have always been writing stories and verses to entangle my own miseries. But here I learned to accept the same without giving any feeling or any label of craving or aversion. 

Yes! I felt like running away the very next day. The first few days was a jail experience. If I knew I could then I would have surely left the place. 

I had several people around me who followed the course rules of not even passing gestures to each other. Disconnecting myself from everyone and technology was not difficult but being unable to share the outbreak made me feel weak. Who knew it was making me strong. I kept smiling because I wanted the same to reflect between the people in the same journey. And started stitching stories inside my mind. 

Unfolding some tales turned unnecessary. The baggage of this untold experiences ain’t heavy either. 

Letting go of many unwholesome beliefs and habits that had set boundaries, one becomes aware of the body and the mind. Mostly the interaction between the two. Because we are usually busy distracting ourselves so we can’t see or readily face some difficult truths about life and death, joy and suffering, karma and chaos etc. 

This will change – This is what I learned, experienced & will follow that nothing is permanent. And also that I am not going to perform any good only for others to think I’m good. But for myself to feel good. 

The experience is different for everyone. Some take a dive into deep peace, some barely are able to get the hang of it. But this course isn’t demanding. It believes in giving to all those who can accept. I did and I’m happy. I suggest you all the same. 

The best stories will be curated when you will have no pen or paper on you.  
Have a happy reading & meditation. 🌻

It’s more than a sprained ankle.

So this is a post by a home-sick attention seeker. 🌻

It’s more than a sprained ankle.🤕 

It took me a good scooter fall to really know where I stand. It doesn’t get easier because I crave all the attention and caring. More than the wounds the fact that I am alone hurts me more. 👪

Surviving with the maybes and probablys and could-bes and still unable to convince myself for a better reason to stay in the hills. 💙 
I realized the worth of many relations today. 

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Between beautiful disasters 🌎

Have a look at those sharp mountains behind. The wild finishing to it’s skin are bruised by the frequent landslides. But it still continues to stand huge, strong & still.

 
Are you getting me? 

In the past few month after travelling into this heavenly district of Uttarakhand, I have been surrounded with people that have never seen more than what was made visible by the doors.

Many people with no hope of climbing down those mountains and migrating to a better place. Also children who have no clue how a city looks like or even had a simple bus ride.

These experiences have formed a baggage of emotions within me and everyday I think of ways to be a part of their lives. I crave to create a fairyland for them all. So that when I return to my city, I’ll have all hope that someday many of these kids might come down to meet me as well with all their achievements.

Let me share my experiences with these beautiful disasters. 

I’ve seen land slides. Walked on many roads with a fear of collapsing down the hill with the roads. Dared to look up above with worried predictions of huge stones sliding above me. 

I never knew how earthquakes feel like till I experienced a smaller one last month. Even though it was just a shaky experience but you never know what it could have resulted into. 

Mostly travelled on the edge of the roads looking at how deep the hills are and wondered what if I die? No one might even find my traces. 

I’ve climbed cold hills with worried feets. 

Every strangers welcoming smile that was adorable, alarmed me of being on a safer side in the deep forest roads of these remote locations.

They say this place includes huge alcoholism and fear of leopards. 

But where are we safe on this earth? No where. These are all challenges that I chose to accept and is why I’m walking without turning behind. 

Between these beautiful disasters I have found how beautiful my life could be. 🙂 

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We must survive but happily.

Problems are part of our lives. We invite some and few occur uninvited. They seem to be out of control sometimes and how others remark our issues bluntly makes us go mad. They advice us to relax and take it easy and when they go through the same they are simply living our trauma too.
Another human tendancy after all!

I think my problems are always bigger then the others. And every other human thinks the same.

But what I really want to suggest here is getting at our hyper mode won’t really change the situation. The situation is going to remain the same and will change either for good or bad. All we should do is not let it impact our lives in a negative way.

Why? Because unless we keep ourselves content with what we have, our mind won’t possess the stability to deal with what is happening. Try to get involved in something else till the phase disappears. Eventually we are still going to have what was supposed to happen. One shouldn’t drown themselves in their grievances so much that they keep their lives aside.

(I’m going through a similar phase, it is difficult I understand. But trust me I’m doing and feeling better then what I used to before)

All you have to do is survive, but happily instead.

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Have a happy reading & writing 🙂

Thinking about getting back to your ex ?

Soumili’s tale tried narrating us about this girl, who comes across her ex boyfriend after several years and finds him totally different, good and improved. She feels good knowing that today he is a better person. So she refers him to her mother as a new guy with a sigh of relief.

We come across such situations very rarely because we know many people never change. It’s rare that a person will try to improve their character for someone else.

We must not expect anyone to stop betraying, cheating, fooling or playing around if that’s what they have been enjoying.

Need an example ?

Don’t you enjoy icecreams? So what if having too much ice cream can cause you problem, you have money and enough time so you’ll enjoy right? Similarly there are people who prefer taking pleasures even if they have to hurt someone else.

It is important for us to understand that the reason why they have been living this character is only because they are enjoying that very state.

The character of some people will always remain unpredictable so why must you deal with it? Few might come back to your life and make you feel they have changed, well and good if they have. But what if they are still the same deep within?
They must have convinced you or your heart must have felt that this time you can trust them. The only thing you must do is forgive them and move on instead of getting back.

Please don’t forget why at the first place you were seperated.

If you ever feel somebody has changed for good, wish them good luck, leave and lead towards exploring the other good things in your life. Like I have always suggested, you can live without. Be your own hero okay!

And if you still feel the one needs to be given a chance, go ahead but this time be careful.

Have a happy reading 🙂

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Sleep talking secrets!

People can hardly pretend or lie in their sleep. Often the habit of sleep talking reveals the underlying truth of a person’s life. It discloses many interesting facts which are either sweet or bitterly sour.

The best part about someone sleep talking next to you is an easy understanding about what the person feels for you. Or how deeply a person feels about something.
Though the saddest part is coming across those facts which are not going to help you and also affect your emotions, diversely.

Have you ever heard anybody sleep talking? I know it is difficult to understand what the person is murmuring. Sleep talking is connected to what a person does throughout the day and where their mind was largely occupied into.

Here are some examples :

• These people usually tend to extend the incomplete conversations of the day. Whatever they were involved into, their imaginary process repeats the same in their mind while they are asleep.
In such cases the person would only speak those things which they must have not spoken while awake.

• Sometimes they reveal hidden truths upon asking as well. Try this if you want to involve some fun but I would suggest you to be careful if you are not good at accepting and handling truths.

• There is a certainty of a person waking up to your questions immediately or upon them responding to your questions unknowingly too. That is an effective signal. A person will wake up with a sudden reaction only when they are aware that they don’t have to reveal certain things before you, either good or bad. They panic or pretend to not have understood what you asked, if they wake up after answering you something that you must have found weird. There lies the secret. It could be anything, a surprise planned for you, their personal issues, their plans etc.

• If the person happens to be your partner, the sleep talks are either cheat-talks or love-talks. 

Don’t believe me? Try it on your family members, friends or partner.
It could be fun but be careful.

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Have a happy reading & writing.

Stuck in resemblance?

How often do we come across someone who reminds us about our past?

And if with time we happen to get attached to the person, it would be unjust to consider points of resemblance from the past.

Love never depends upon how resembling the person is with your past but how natural, meaningful and new state it brings along for your life.

Why do we compare? Why do we still hold on to our past when we have someone more worthy to preserve?

Being stuck in the past can never be titled as love for someone new. Move on for real or don’t at all.

Love the one for who they are and for what they are getting along, a new beginning.

Have a happy reading! Take care 🙂

Read humans too!

I chose reading because imagining is fun. Every word carved within those respective papers is more defining that any movie. I get an opportunity to live someone else’s life mentally and the experience is everlasting.

Let’s get back to my microtale above.
Would I be rightful to anybody’s feelings, if I am not willing to understand or reciprocate ?

No! Because it’s just like carrying a big fat novel to read without any attemp or intension to read. 
I am not discussing mind-reading here,  but largely about reciprocating to someone’s feelings or expectations willing.

Why? Because all this while you were reading a book and a story that belongs to someone else. Life gives you opportunity to read a person who belongs to you. You can bring about necessary changes to it, no you can’t erase anything but begin a new chapter any moment.

While you read books, read humans too.

Have a happy reading! Take care 🙂

In fact, you should be happy.

Have you ever felt such a feeling ?

Let us be positive here on this side.
I wouldn’t suggest you should be happy because the one you love is happy, even though with someone else.

In fact, you should be happy because you are not with the person who wouldn’t have cherished your being.
You are not with the one to whom everyday would have been a rehearsal for how better can you appear with them.
You are not where you couldn’t have ever been comfortable no matter how easy going the person is.
You should be happy because you still have a chance to be yourself. To let love grab you someday.
A love that wouldn’t fear to have you, confused to choose you, to hold you with pride and be there forever.

And what about you?
You are destined to be with someone else, be prepared to come across the actual one.

Have a happy reading! Take care 🙂