What made you what you are today?

I failed to notice the dark clouds which were all storming towards me. While I was busy celebrating the light, suddenly the smoke was everywhere making it difficult for me to breathe.

No there weren’t any stars visible in the dark which those inspirational quotes claim about. An unwanted and unexpected moment not willing to pass at all. I was confused.

I asked myself that were my eyes even open because I couldn’t see anything. Though I could feel something surrounding me with all the bad vibes.

I could hear it cursing with a promise that it won’t leave me for a long time now. And will stay and make things difficult for me everyday for many more days ahead.

But right when I was about to give up I reflected upon myself & my journey so far. I realised that I have always been moulded by those who built me as well as the ones who have broken me. These days shall pass too. And it will again mould me into something new.

So what made you what you are today?

An open letter to the man who screamed KARMA everyday after that day!

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Dear Stakeholder of Karma, 

Every night I tasted my own tears while thinking about all those unvisited snowfall that completed you without me.

I woke up to several nightmares where a family of so called open-minded demons kept teaching you how to curse instead of prioritising your love for me.

When it all ended you looked happy but when I moved for my happiness you offered me the unexpected vision of my character.

And you gave those demons the power to crash me and burn what you failed protect & preserve.

Where were you while the demons pushed me to sink in my own miseries?

You were standing right there pretending to be in love.

I failed to notice that you were willfully suffocating me & screaming karma from within.

You were a gateway for all the demons to enter my weaknesses.

To the one who is screaming karma everyday, kindly celebrate the death of my existence.

(based on a real life incident submitted to #tfu__ : submit your stories for copy-editing to talesforeveruntold@gmail.com)

Bura Na Maano, Holi Hai. 

We don’t wish to be singled out as a spoilsport right? Howsoever offensive or virtually assaunting someone’s behaviour might be. 
Zabardasti ko masti ka naam matt dijiye!
The reasons why several women don’t wish to play holi is either they have faced the abuse or they fear the same. How often do we put the energy in creating a fear free environment for a women on this occasion? We are more inclined toward forcing her to participate. I hope we have a Happy Holi and make it happy for the people in our circle. 

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Vipassana Retreat : Power of isolation. 

With my first Vipassana retreat I tasted silence and solitude. Several months before I moved from Mumbai to Uttarakhand to find some peace. To escape the regular life and contribute in the rural community. While I worked between the cold & misty mountains I decided to travel to Jaipur for a Vipassana course. Not only for meditation but in search of some answers to my misery. And look where I found the key, within myself. 
Dhamma Thali Vipassana Centre demands us to remain silent for 10 days, without talking to anybody one must meditate the whole day, eat plain food & isolate itself deeply. 

Being a proportionate explorer I could see myself getting down in life after seeing the mess in myself. 

It wasn’t that easy because just like some, I am a complicated person with tangled cycle of thoughts. I have always been writing stories and verses to entangle my own miseries. But here I learned to accept the same without giving any feeling or any label of craving or aversion. 

Yes! I felt like running away the very next day. The first few days was a jail experience. If I knew I could then I would have surely left the place. 

I had several people around me who followed the course rules of not even passing gestures to each other. Disconnecting myself from everyone and technology was not difficult but being unable to share the outbreak made me feel weak. Who knew it was making me strong. I kept smiling because I wanted the same to reflect between the people in the same journey. And started stitching stories inside my mind. 

Unfolding some tales turned unnecessary. The baggage of this untold experiences ain’t heavy either. 

Letting go of many unwholesome beliefs and habits that had set boundaries, one becomes aware of the body and the mind. Mostly the interaction between the two. Because we are usually busy distracting ourselves so we can’t see or readily face some difficult truths about life and death, joy and suffering, karma and chaos etc. 

This will change – This is what I learned, experienced & will follow that nothing is permanent. And also that I am not going to perform any good only for others to think I’m good. But for myself to feel good. 

The experience is different for everyone. Some take a dive into deep peace, some barely are able to get the hang of it. But this course isn’t demanding. It believes in giving to all those who can accept. I did and I’m happy. I suggest you all the same. 

The best stories will be curated when you will have no pen or paper on you.  
Have a happy reading & meditation. 🌻

It’s more than a sprained ankle.

So this is a post by a home-sick attention seeker. 🌻

It’s more than a sprained ankle.🤕 

It took me a good scooter fall to really know where I stand. It doesn’t get easier because I crave all the attention and caring. More than the wounds the fact that I am alone hurts me more. 👪

Surviving with the maybes and probablys and could-bes and still unable to convince myself for a better reason to stay in the hills. 💙 
I realized the worth of many relations today. 

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In search of Enlightenment? 

Enlightenment & Peace?
  Aren’t these supposed to be strong words and expectations from life?

All our life we have been searching for the answers that are mostly within us. If we choose to walk on a path that leads us toward an authentic living, we’ll surely find our souls empty of questions. 🌻

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Between beautiful disasters 🌎

Have a look at those sharp mountains behind. The wild finishing to it’s skin are bruised by the frequent landslides. But it still continues to stand huge, strong & still.

 
Are you getting me? 

In the past few month after travelling into this heavenly district of Uttarakhand, I have been surrounded with people that have never seen more than what was made visible by the doors.

Many people with no hope of climbing down those mountains and migrating to a better place. Also children who have no clue how a city looks like or even had a simple bus ride.

These experiences have formed a baggage of emotions within me and everyday I think of ways to be a part of their lives. I crave to create a fairyland for them all. So that when I return to my city, I’ll have all hope that someday many of these kids might come down to meet me as well with all their achievements.

Let me share my experiences with these beautiful disasters. 

I’ve seen land slides. Walked on many roads with a fear of collapsing down the hill with the roads. Dared to look up above with worried predictions of huge stones sliding above me. 

I never knew how earthquakes feel like till I experienced a smaller one last month. Even though it was just a shaky experience but you never know what it could have resulted into. 

Mostly travelled on the edge of the roads looking at how deep the hills are and wondered what if I die? No one might even find my traces. 

I’ve climbed cold hills with worried feets. 

Every strangers welcoming smile that was adorable, alarmed me of being on a safer side in the deep forest roads of these remote locations.

They say this place includes huge alcoholism and fear of leopards. 

But where are we safe on this earth? No where. These are all challenges that I chose to accept and is why I’m walking without turning behind. 

Between these beautiful disasters I have found how beautiful my life could be. 🙂 

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